I have been so ridiculously stressed lately. My back is forever in knots and I’ve been having vivid nightmares. I bought some sleeping pills because I can’t handle waking up to my family doing stupid annoying shit all the time. Last night they worked all right.

I realize now that I am not, nor have I ever really been fit for a relationship. Not a serious one anyways. I’m not currently capable of love, if it exists.

I’ve been cutting down on coffee and trying to eat a little bit healthier in hopes that my stress levels go down.

My home life is driving me absolutely insane. I wish I drove so that I’d be a step closer to moving out. I’m going to buy a driver’s ed book because I can’t handle this shit anymore. I don’t mean to complain, I guess I’ll make up for it by changing things and making progress.

I need a major change, badddddddlyyy.